Deja Vue

I am sitting at home, in a familiar place emotionally, spiritually and physically. I am recovering from surgery which removed numerous adhesions and scar tissue from my uterus, intestines and ovaries. And I am in pain. Why? Not only because of the obvious physical situation, but because it has been nine years since I underwent this same surgery and recovery time for the same problem. The problem has a name and a source - its called Endometriosis.
This is no ordinary pain. This is the kind of pain that most women are told is normal, because it happens around the menstrual cycle. So for years, my severe cramping, vomiting, diarrhea, etc. was just "dealt with" because I thought it should be. But after much research I sought another OB/Gyn and learned what endometriosis really was. My first surgery was in Sept. 1999. Out of work for six weeks and later told pregnancy chances were "slim to none." God blessed me to birth a son in 2004. Now in 2007-2008, symptoms start to appear quite similar to the ones prior to the first surgery. Over the past four years I've suffered two miscarriages and shed many tears and "why me" prayers about this situation. However, my faith in God has pulled me through. I'm really believing that once this recovery period is over that God will indeed bless my womb one more time. But as the songwriter says, if the Lord doesn't do anything else for me, he's already done enough!